𝐀 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐈 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐚 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞-𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩𝐬.
My desire was not based on an elevated view of self or a desire to cause anyone pain.
Rather, it came from accepting the fact that authentic human connection is important to me.
It also came from accepting that I had invested much of my life in a number of activities and relationships that caused me more sadness than they did joy.
These two realizations left me with a choice to make.
𝘢) 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘶𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘢𝘴 𝘪𝘴…
… 𝘖𝘳…
𝘣) 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘱 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘷𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦.
I ended up choosing the latter….
…and in this journey…
I had to learn how to forgive people for misusing me.
I had to forgive myself for misusing “me” too.
I had to risk the possibility of new hurt and rejection.
… But leaving the “old normal” is the best thing that could have happened to me
For every relationship that I’ve had to take a step back from I’ve been blessed with a handful more of life-giving friendships.
I’m a firm believer that I will not always find myself surrounded by the people that I expected to have around me….. Nevertheless, I will always find myself surrounded by the people who were divinely appointed to walk the journey of life with me at any given moment in time
John Eli
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